Reflection

I'm currently sat in the library and it's half past 8pm. I plan on staying here until late so what's a little time out to write a post hey!

Today I'm feeling especially down about things. One certain thing in particular. It's starting to really sink in that I've truly lost someone who gave me the best summer of my life. In fact the best time of my life. I've never been so happy and content in someone's presence. He was an incredible person to spend my summer with and it's truly heartbreaking that we no longer talk.

I understand that this is something extremely personal but it's hard to keep it in sometimes and I'm not really comfortable discussing things verbally even with the closest of people. I'm not going to go into the gory details of it all because it's not necessary. I just need to write down that I am hurting a lot at the moment, but I'm trying everything I can to see the positive in things.

In fact there's lots of positives. I'm at University doing a degree which is just mad; I never thought I'd get into a university! I live with amazing people who make a cold, rainy day like today seem okay and never fail to put a smile on my face. I have a wonderful family who are so supportive and have helped me get to where I am so much. I have lots of exciting travels coming up such as Costa brava with two of the girls I live with in June, Amsterdam in July! Next week I'm doing a sleep out for charity in aid of the Homeless which I'm really looking forward to. I'm currently applying to study in Holland next year for a semester... yeah I know, WOW!!!

So I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, and there is 9 time out of 10 a smile on my face. But today and this evening especially I've let myself dwell just to let it out, because it's healthy to do that. I've spent time bottling things up before and it only damages you more. But now it's out, I can put my smile back on my face.

I'm going to go back and enjoy my essay planning and pages upon pages of reading to do on really really exciting theories of Animation. If you can sense the sarcasm, well done.

Stay positive.